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E16: Coronavirus: How We Respond · The Lila Rose Show

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Hey everybody, welcome to the Lila Rose show.
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It has been several months since I have done this podcast.
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We finished season one last year and now this is the first
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episode of season 2. I took a hiatus because I was
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out for maternity leave. I had my baby three months ago.
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It has been amazing. I look forward to sharing more
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about that. We welcome to a little sun into
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the world three months ago and also I was planning to do some
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new things with the podcast for season 2.
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So as many of you who are listening and following along
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for Season 1, thank you so much for joining for that.
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I wanted to expand for Season 2 to include video and to have a
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studio where I can actually interview guests in person.
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As you may notice, I'm not in a studio right now.
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I'm actually in my living room. We are part of this global
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crisis that's taken place in just the last few weeks.
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Where we are now, My husband and I, my our baby, have been in
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this apt. I think it's been maybe 10 days
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now. And I know a lot of you guys are
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in the same boat, but I wanted to get started with the podcast
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regardless because I was planning on doing this late May
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and there's so much to talk about.
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So thank you for bearing with me and I'm excited to cover a lot
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of stuff in the coming weeks. I'm going to try to do this
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weekly with everything going on. I'm going to see if I can keep
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that going. But we'll talk at the end of
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this episode about some of the things that you can expect, some
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of the great topics we'll be covering and folks we will be
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looking to interview in the next coming weeks.
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But for today, I wanted to talk about coronavirus.
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Of course, it's all over the news.
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It's impacting virtually everybody.
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It's a global pandemic, COVID-19.
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Almost no one had heard of this just a few months ago, but now
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everyone has heard of it. And, you know, India is
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completely shut down. Shelter in place for all 1.4
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citizens of India, China. This disease, it appears,
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started in Wuhan, China, and there were thousands of deaths
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and 10s of thousands affected. If you're in the United States,
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I'm here in Los Angeles. We've been sheltering in place
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in Los Angeles by order of the mayor and the governor of the
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state for over the last week. And many of you across the
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country have received similar orders from mayors or governors.
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And then the president of the United States has said that we
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should practice social distancing for the end until the
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end of this month. And then there will probably be
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an update about what to be, what should be done next to try to
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slow the spread or flatten the curve of the disease.
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There is a lot that I could say about this issue, about this,
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this, this crisis that's affected so many people.
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There's a lot of debates happening about it.
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And, you know, how serious it is.
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Is it worth these strident measures that the government is
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taking? Is it enough, You know, concerns
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about overwhelming our medical system.
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I don't want to get into that though, because a lot of that is
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are things outside of our control.
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I do not envy the position of a an elected official right now of
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a public health official who has to make really tough calls with
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limited information because this virus is brand new.
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COVID-19 has not been studied for for months or years or
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decades. It's been, it's really just
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entered the the world seen just the last few months and just
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entered the United States in just the last several weeks.
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So I don't want to talk too much about that.
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What I want to focus on are the things that we can control.
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And again, this is not to say that we don't have an impact.
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We don't, we aren't supposed to have an impact in those bigger
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decisions. I mean, we elected our
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officials. We should be voicing our
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concerns. We should be having the debates
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that we're having. It's all really important.
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But the reality is there are a lot of people feeling a lot of
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anxiety right now. There's a there's a sense of
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chaos and potential impending doom out there.
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Some people feel more at peace than others, but everyone has
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been affected. Some of us know loved ones who
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are facing have COVID-19. We have loved ones who maybe
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have lost their jobs or people that we know who are losing
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income because of this. So many of us are affected in
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one way or another. And certainly the threat of the
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thing, whether it's the economy that's potentially going to
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continue to take a plummet. I mean, already over a million
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people have filed for unemployment in just the last
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week. And this is more than filed for
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unemployment in the 2000 since the 2008 recession.
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So it's been really crazy the reaction both economic and then
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of course what is happening with this actual spread of the
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disease. So I don't want to get into
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that. What I want to get into is what
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we can control because I think it is crucial for each of us to
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think about what is up to us in our day-to-day right now.
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And there are 6 things that have been really helping me in the
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last 10 plus days and that I hope will be helpful to you.
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First of all, the context here is not many of you, many of you
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may know this might not, but we right now smack dab in the
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middle of what is called Lent. Lent is the 40 days before
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Easter that a lot of Christians observe as a time for us to
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really confront our own mortality, recognize that we are
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to dust and to dust we will return as human beings.
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We cannot control death, that death comes for us all.
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That's one certain thing that we all share is that we will all
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die just as much as we are all living.
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And at the beginning of Lent is 40 days before Easter, and
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Easter is when we celebrate the resurrection of Jesus Christ.
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And these 40 days starts with Ash Wednesday, which is when we
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are signed with. And many Catholics especially
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observe this and Orthodox, but some evangelicals as well, when
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we are signed with the sign of the cross in ashes on our
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forehead to remind us that we are from dust and to dust we
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will return. So I think it's a particularly
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Lenti Lent or fitting time. I mean, if the global pandemic
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is going to strike the world and make us all wonder about death
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and be confronted with their own mortality and in some ways their
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own helplessness, what better time than Lent?
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I mean, that's really the season of Lent.
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And it's also a time for conversion, for repentance, for
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renewal, and for prayer as we prepare for again Easter, which
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is when Christ is resurrected from the dead after offering his
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life for all humankind because of the sin of mankind.
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So that's this context that I found particularly striking.
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I've been thinking about that and praying about that a lot.
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But the six things that I think in that context, I, I think
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would be really valuable for us is, first of all, there is a
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barrage right now of media, social media, news reports.
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I mean, we're hearing about every death, every update.
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There's a constant political fighting happening.
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There's concerns about the economy, of course, concerns
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about the spread of the disease. Number one, I think it's so key
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that we keep our curiosity in check because yes, it's
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important to be aware of what's happening.
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But constantly consuming the news, constantly looking at our
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social media feeds, constantly reviewing things that we cannot
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control, that we do not have direct ability to change, that
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does not help us be at peace. It does not help us be present
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to our day and what we're responsible for today.
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And I get it. A lot of us right now are
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struggling. I mean, people out of jobs,
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people at home, people not having to homeschool their kids,
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struggling and fearful, but constantly consuming media,
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constantly looking at the headlines is not going to bring
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us peace. It's going to bring us anxiety.
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I mean, there are people dying everyday, not just from COVID,
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but people driving from car accidents, people dying from
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natural causes, people dying from cancer.
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If we read a headline about every time somebody died, we
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would be overwhelmed. It we, we, we, we're not made to
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be able to take in that kind of information.
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We're only made to be able to deal with what's in front of us
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today. And of course, to be to be a
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good citizen aware of what's happening, but to constantly be
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studying it is overwhelming. So I think our anxiety will have
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a direct correlation to how much we are consuming news media and
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how much we're considering social media.
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So I think keeping our curiosity in check, turning it off and
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going about our day, I think is crucial for the next coming
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weeks or months for however long this lasts.
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And we will get through this. This is not going to last
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forever. There will be a time we can all
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look back on this period of time and we will wonder, you know,
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did we were we present to our days?
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Were we just not on our anxiety and the sense of chaos to take
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over our minds and our time? Or were we making the best of
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this time? So #1 keep our curiosity in
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check #2A lot of us are sheltering in place or even
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quarantining and many of us are with our families right now.
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And you know, that is really special time because we might,
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this might be a time where because we're not allowed to go
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out, largely speaking, we don't have the distractions or the
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busyness of our typical schedule.
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We have all this time with physically with our, our family
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or with our loved ones. And even if we don't have that
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time, we are here sitting in our apartments or our homes and we
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can FaceTime them or we can reach out to them.
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And I, I often think, you know, what, if this was my last day on
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earth, what if I don't, I won't have tomorrow because guess
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what? I'm not promised tomorrow.
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You're not promised tomorrow. We might not be here tomorrow.
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We don't have control over that. And what am I going to do with
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today then? Am I going to use today to love
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the people placed in my life and to serve them and to really be
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present with them, look them in the eyes, ask them how they're
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doing, do something fun with them, enjoy them, appreciate
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them. I know it can be frustrating,
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especially if we've got issues in our family or if we're
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stressed or if we're distracted. And I've certainly been
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distracted the last few weeks. I mean, I have a tremendous
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amount of work to do. I mean, all of us are feeling
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that. But I have this newborn baby, my
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3 month old, and I just look at him and I look into his eyes and
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I think, wow, you are the most important part of my day.
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You are my number one priority. And I hope that I can treat you
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that way with that intention and with that love.
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One of the things my husband and I really love doing in the last
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few days as we've been stuck at home is having FaceTime time
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with our families, so extended families.
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So we've been doing dinners where we actually set up our
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phone and we have a family dinner.
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And we just had dinner with my brother and sister-in-law the
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other night where we both were eating while we were Facetiming
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and we had a great conversation. Over the weekend, we did brunch
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with my extended family. So we had all my brothers and
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sisters and their families on Zoom and we all had brunch
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together. Doing being, being creative and
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doing things like that can be really beautiful to have really
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meaningful time with your loved ones or with friends.
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A third thing that's been really helpful for me, and I think it
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is crucial, especially when there's a sense of chaos and
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anxiety and, and all kinds of things outside of our control
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going on. The third thing is to keep a
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good schedule, to have a schedule, a sense of order for
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your day. This can be as simple as three
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things that you want to do that day.
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You know, you plan for it the night before.
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There are three things I want to do tomorrow and you set a time
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for each one. It can be very simple and maybe
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because of kids, you know, I know with my son, if he's
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skipping a nap right now, he's napping.
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But if he doesn't, I want to have his nap then.
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Yeah, that thing that I was planning to do during his nap, I
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wasn't able to do today. But having that sense of order
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and saying, OK, today I'm going to stick to this plan of life.
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I'm going to have this sense of order for my day.
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I'm going to have. This schedule is really powerful
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because it makes us be aware of our precious time and how we're
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using it. And it gives us a sense of a
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control over the things that we can control and the
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responsibilities that we do have, which is the present day,
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what's on our plate. So keeping that order.
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The fourth thing that has been really, I think useful for me
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and my husband and I think is really important for all of us
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right now. And I, I see this happening and
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I love it. It's so inspiring to see this
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already happening, which is to ask ourselves to stop and think,
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OK, how can I serve other people right now?
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What can I do to love other people right now?
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Maybe if you have the means, if you have the resources, you can
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send some money to somebody that who might be hurting because of
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the economic, effectively economic shutdown.
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Maybe somebody that you know, you can send them $50.00 or $100
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because you know they're not able to work for the next few
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weeks or maybe they even lost their job.
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Maybe you can write that letter that you haven't written yet to
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a friend or a thank you card that you haven't written yet to
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a friend or a loved one. Maybe you can call your grandma
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and ask her how she's doing. Maybe you can do something
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around the house that your spouse wanted you to do or a
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roommate that you haven't done, but do something really
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intentional that really will make them happy.
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Maybe, you know, my husband's really neat and really orderly.
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So for him, him like when I take time to organize the bookshelf
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or whatever it is, that means a lot those little things.
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So asking ourselves, how can we serve?
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How can we help? Maybe we're in the position
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where we can serve and help a lot more because we are an
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employer. And so maybe we can find a way
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to make sure that our staff knows that they're taken care of
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and we can find ways to financially support others.
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I mean, there's lots of things we can do, but you know, one
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thing too as far as donating, you can go into your Venmo
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history and see who you last Venmoed.
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And if you have the means, you can Venmo surprise gifts to
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people that you think might be struggling because their jobs
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might be on the line right now because of the the closure of
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businesses. So those are just ideas, but
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it's really amazing how when we change the focus from our own
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interior fears and concerns, you know, that focus on ourself and
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focus instead on somebody else, it can transform our days.
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It can transform our outlook because we were, we were made to
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love, we were made to give to others.
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And when we actually practice that in concrete ways, even if
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we're not feeling it, it really can transform our day.
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So focusing on other people, asking yourself, how can we
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serve and, and taking the time to think about it creatively.
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It might take a minute like, OK, who can I actually help?
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What's a tangible way I can help somebody?
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And then following through on that, the fifth thing, which I
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think is really important, is to use this time.
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Again, a lot of us have this time on our hands.
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It's very unusual. We're sheltering in place, we're
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social distancing, we're at home.
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Many of us aren't working. Or if we are working, our
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working has changed dramatically because we're at home to use
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this time to get creative instead of consuming media,
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instead of consuming a ton of entertainment.
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And I'm not saying don't watch any media.
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I'm not saying don't watch Netflix.
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I'm not saying that's a bad thing.
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Some of it can be good and even inspiring, like a good movie or
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whatever. But instead of just consuming a
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lot. And I think there's a temptation
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right now to kind of binge on stuff because of again, our
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disruption to our lives, the uncertainty around us.
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Instead of binge watching Netflix shows or binge eating
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whatever's in your cupboard after your long line in the
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grocery store to try to get for the week, create.
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Do something creative. Do you like to draw?
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Maybe you like to draw a long time ago or paint and you
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haven't done it in years. Pull that paintbrush out.
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Pull that sketchbook out. Maybe you like to write poetry.
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I like to write poetry. I haven't written poetry in a
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very long time. And the other day I was like,
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I'm just going to write a little poem for myself.
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Even though it's kind of silly, I'm just going to do it.
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Maybe you like to read and you like to read poetry or
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literature or history. Maybe you like music and you
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like to play piano or sing or record songs or play guitar.
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Maybe you like to just enjoy nature.
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Nature's not out of limits. Maybe you can just go and enjoy
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nature and and sit in the beauty of the the natural world if you
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have access to that. I mean, there's a lot of
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different ways that we can be creative.
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Maybe you're a designer, maybe you like to cook, maybe you like
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crafts, but take this time to just let yourself create without
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an expectation on the creation. Meaning you're not creating for
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it to then be a product that you sell or showing up for your boss
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or you know, making it somehow be productive in the world, but
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it's just out of the pure beauty of your creative soul and
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wanting to make something fun and beautiful for yourself.
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And maybe you could do it with family.
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Maybe you do it with your kids. We can do it with your spouse.
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We can do it with a friend. Do something creative with a
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friend. So don't just consume, take time
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to create. Time is a huge blessing.
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And we were made to create. I mean, I believe God our
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creator created us in his image as creators ourselves and that
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were made to Co create with God by being by utilizing that
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creative spirit that we've been given.
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The last thing, and I've talked about this before on other
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podcasts and I talk about it on social media at Fairmount, but
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this is something that has changed my life dramatically
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over the past 10 plus years. And I can't stress enough how
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important it is. But then also and how simple it
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is, but then also how difficult it can be.
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And what this is is prayer and prayer meaning setting a timer,
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literally setting aside a chunk of time and taking that time to
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say, I'm going to pray. And you might think, OK, sounds
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nice, but what is what is? What do you mean by prayer?
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I mean that can mean a lot of things to a lot of people.
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I think the most direct, simplest definition is prayer is
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conversation with God and rawness realness with God.
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So sitting down and actually telling him completely what
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where we're at, what we're thinking, who, what's inside of
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us. It's also discovering who God
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is. I mean, God, I believe is
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perfect love. He is the author and creator of
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all life. He loves us, he saves us.
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And to spend time to thank him, to spend time to meditate on how
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good he is. Think about these
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transcendentals like goodness, truth and beauty, which are what
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who God. God is made-up of all these
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things. We, we pick up these ideas, but
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really that's a person, that's God.
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So marvel at that perfection that God is and that love that
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God is to ask him for help. If we're feeling stressed, ask
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him for relief, ask him for support.
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If there's something we need, ask him for it.
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To say that we're sorry. I mean, we screw up every day.
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I screw up every single day. I mean, I won't speak for you.
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I know I do. And telling God I'm sorry, you
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know, explaining this is what I, this is where I'm at.
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I'm sorry for, for my shortcomings and asking him for
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help to do better. It can be very simple like a
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child, I mean think about what your child or think about when
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you were a child or if you have a niece or nephew, like how
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simple children are when they communicate.
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That's how we are meant to be with God.
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Just be be real and and true to what is in our hearts and
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trusting of him. I mean, I think a part of prayer
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too is trust. Trust that he hears us, trust
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that he loves us. Trust that he has the power to
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forgive and to heal us. So taking that time to pray can
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be as simple as setting a timer can be simple as setting a timer
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for 10 minutes and saying I'm going to do these 10 minutes.
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Sometimes it's really helpful to have a spiritual book with our
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prayer or for me, Bible. I'm again, I'm a Catholic
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Christian. So reading the Bible, reading a
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spiritual book, one that I really love.
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A friend of mine gave it to me recently.
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Shout out to Christine is a book on spiritual discernment,
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Discernment of the spirits by Dan Burke.
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And you can actually pray for Dan because he is right now in
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ICU because of Corona, because of COVID, coronavirus, COVID-19.
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So pray for him. But that's a wonderful book.
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I will be sharing more book ideas and resources in the
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description of this podcast and on social media of books that we
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can read, spiritual books or just other books that might be
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useful or resources. But taking time to pray everyday
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is incredibly powerful. It's changed my life.
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And there will be 1000 reasons why not to pray.
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And This is why I believe, I, I, I know that Satan is real, evil
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exists. Satan is real, just like God is
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real and wants to do anything he can to keep us going in the
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frenzy of our own thoughts, in our own emotional realities and
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complexities, in our own fears or our own kind of drive to
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achieve things as opposed to stopping and taking time for
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prayer. There will always be something
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else to do. It's funny, sometimes when I sit
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down to do my prayer, it's like, OK, now I'm hungry, I want to go
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eat something or now I have to send that one more e-mail or
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respond to that one more text. And it's like, no, just stop.
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Take the time to pray. It can be so difficult.
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It can your whole day can go by and you're like, wow, when did I
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pray? Did I pray at all?
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And I think it's a crucial with prayer, just like with any
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relationship to actually stop and do the prayer instead of
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being like, well, I just kind of prayed in my mind as I went
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about my day. Well, that's good too.
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But taking that time to stop and pray.
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So take time to pray. I mean, again, we should have a
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lot of time for right now we are in our homes and yes, I know
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many of us are juggling a ton of stuff, but taking that time
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right now, I think will be, it always is so important, but it
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will be very especially poor and powerful and important now.
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So those are the six things that I thought would be really
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helpful as we take a step back and look at this time.
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You know, a lot of people are scared and hurting, but I think
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that we can choose to experience this time, this calamity as
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either a blessing or as a curse. Is it a blessing in our personal
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lives, in the way that we respond to it?
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And we choose to do some of these six things.
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We choose to grow ourselves and love the people around us.
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Or is it a curse because of the frustration and the anxiety that
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we are allowing Or we have filling up our hearts and our
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souls? And I think we can experience it
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as a blessing. I'm not trying to whitewash
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this. I'm not trying to say it's easy.
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I'm not trying to not acknowledge that a lot of people
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are really struggling right now and there's a lot of fear and
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there's real stuff that's happening that's really hard.
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I mean, literally people losing jobs.
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I know somebody who recently a couple people who've lost jobs,
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people who are sick of people maybe who have even died.
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I mean, this is extremely serious, but as a Christian, I
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believe that, as Romans 828 says, God works all things for
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the good of those that love him. That doesn't mean that evil
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isn't evil, sickness isn't sickness, death isn't death.
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But it means that God has the power to use all those dark
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things for good. And that too is the story of
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Lent unto Easter, that God uses even the mortality, even the
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fact that to dust we are, and to dust, dust from dust we came
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into, dust we will return. That He will ultimately use that
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to invite us into His resurrection so that we may have
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eternal life, That there's more beyond death because of God's
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love and God's saving power. In upcoming episodes, I'm going
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to try to do this weekly. A few topics I'm going to cover.
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I just wanted to let you guys know, especially if you have
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ideas for me, of things you want me to make sure I talk about
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with these topics. And you can contact me at
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thoughts@lilaroshow.com or via Instagram.
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I try to respond. There's a lot of messages I
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sometimes am not able to get to, but I try to read most of them
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if not all of them. The topics I'm going to get into
22:21
are my birth story. I know a lot of women right now
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who are expecting babies and this is kind of a crazy easy
22:27
time to be having a baby. I get that and it can be
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overwhelming. But they're all champs and I
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wanna share some of the things that helped me during my labor
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and delivery process that I hope are helpful.
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As well as my birth story. I am also going to be doing an
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episode on homeschooling because I was homeschooled, some of you
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might know that, and I am one of eight kids and all my siblings
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were homeschooled. So my mom is basically and my
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dad are experts. And also my husband is also one
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of eight kids and he was also homeschooled.
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And so both of them I'm hoping to interview on the podcast and
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then I'm also planning to do an episode on financial well-being
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and what to do if you lose your job or lose income.
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Interview an expert about that, about what we can do to be
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smarter financially or to deal with really tough challenges
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financially. And I think I hear a baby.
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That was great timing 'cause I'm wrapping up.
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He's waking up from his nap, so I'm gonna go get him.
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But thank you all so much for tuning in.
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I'm really excited about this season.
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I'm looking forward to getting into a legit studio in the
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future and having legit guests in studio.
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But for now, we'll do it long distance remotely.
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Well, we're social distancing from home.
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Have a wonderful rest of your day.
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God bless. And we'll talk to you soon.
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rate it. Give it five stars on iTunes and
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share it because that will help the podcast reach more people.
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Thanks so much guys.