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Thoughtful Living: Harnessing The Power Of Mind-Body Harmony, Resilience, And Regret-Free Existence With Dr. Cody Golman · Mindful You

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Alan Carroll: Hello, everybody. And welcome back to this episode
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of the mindful you podcast. My name is Alan Carroll. And I'm
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happy to host the podcast with you as we journey down the path
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of mindfulness and we get to meet people who share their
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stories and their adventures as they travel down that, that life
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path. Today's guest Dr. Cody, Goldmann, chiropractor, seeker,
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teacher, healer, who has experienced radical, physical
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mental transformations in his life. stories that are
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miraculous. Cody has touched the space of the miraculous. And his
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stories are inspiring. And his wisdom is like a powerful,
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LIGHT, shining, to illuminate the darkness and bring the love
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and the joy and the compassion that you get when you have a non
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judgmental mindful perception. So it's exciting to be able to
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share with you, Dr. Cody Goleman. And please welcome him
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to the mindful U podcast. Welcome Dr. Cody to the mindful
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U podcast. What a pleasure to have you with us today. Oh,
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thank
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Dr. Cody Golman: you for having me. It's really my pleasure. I
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appreciate that the time and space in your life.
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Alan Carroll: Well, you're you have an interesting story to
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tell and an interesting background to share with us,
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which leads you into this space we call mindfulness. So just
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likes to have you share a little bit of your background and and
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your journey so far until today.
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Unknown: Sure, sure. I'll I'll condense because I'd probably
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like many of you in the listeners have had a lot of life
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experience in a very short period of time. But to summarize
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this, I was at 17, I joined the military. And that was before
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you could join before you could actually you can't actually go
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to the military at 17. I was still in high school back then
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you could. So I joined. And by the age of 19. I was a tank
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commander. And I was very eager at you know 17 1819. And I found
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you know, that was my first real experience with people. There
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was a lot of different races, religions, cultures. And so I
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got a lot of people skills right off the bat very early. And my I
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was in a in a big howitzer tank, the bullets are about 100 pounds
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apiece. And the bullet hole is not the technical term, but it
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was above my head for about a foot above my head. You can
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shoot three bullets a minute. So I was the bullet kid throwing
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these bullets over my head and long story short, I started
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having numbness and tingling and headaches and all kinds of
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stuff, right? And I knew nothing about how I like everyone else.
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I went to the doctor and when I was headed in runny nose, I got
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a pill and I got the flu shot and got all these things. And so
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I started going to a neurologist who checked me out and he said
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nothing's wrong with you, but my hand was numb. And so I went to
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the cardiovascular specialist and did the treadmill stress
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test and that was fine, nothing wrong. Meanwhile, over the
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course of 3456 months, I'm starting to lose strength in my
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hand, and I can't lift these bullets anymore. And so it's
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becoming quite a big problem. I also start having major
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headaches and you know had had As much since I was 12, that
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just started getting worse. So I go to multiple specialists, and
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they couldn't find they basically all said, nothing's
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wrong with you and we go on, that doesn't make any sense. Now
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a few of them gave me some prescriptions, which was my
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first kind of inkling to like, you know, where I'm going with
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this. And I thought, well, that's weird. Why, if you don't
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know what's going on, why would you get a prescription? You
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know, just again, I was a little stupid when it comes to health.
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So I didn't know what was going on. Sure. So eventually go to
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the specialist, my mom said, Hey, your grandfather was a
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world war two pilot, and he went to see a chiropractor. And I
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said, I want to see a real doctor. I'm not sure what to say
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when I was quacks. And but after you see enough real doctors who
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really don't help you, you decide to go do some other
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stuff. So I went to finally reluctantly see a chiropractor.
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And the guy said, Hey, I've done some X rays. And he showed me
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you got a pinched nerve in your neck. And I said, Well, that's
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that can't be the case. I saw a neurologist. And he said, well,
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a neurologist wasn't looking for this. And I said, I don't
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understand. He said, Well, you're, you're the specialist.
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You saw, were checking your body parts. They weren't checking the
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connection to the body parts. And they said, well, that are
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you kidding me right now? It's that same must be joking. So he
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said, Well, let me do an adjustment with you did
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adjustment which removed pressure off the nerve in my
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neck? In literally one second? At a lightning bolt?
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Electricity, energy shoot down my hand and feeling came back?
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In? Right. Yeah, there you go. Right. So so there you go. So
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that's, that's what I experienced. Now. I'm, I'm 19 at
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the time, and I go, What in the hell just happened, I was
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shocked feeling came back. And he started explaining the
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principles to me. Now I say this story, because this is where
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this is the initiation of of understanding universal
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principles, and the application to the mind and body. And, you
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know, he said, let's work with you a few more times, he
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explained to me that my brain has an intelligence inside. And
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it's running from my brain to the through my spinal cord out
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to my organs. And there was pressure on those nerves, so the
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intelligence wasn't getting through to my hand. And little
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did I find I found out later, about three months later, after
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working with this guy, my heart palpitations, and asthma
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completely cleared up. Since I was 12. completely cleared up.
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Now, at the time, I was also going to the University of New
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Orleans, and it opened up an anatomy book. And if you guys
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look this up, there's something called the marriage chart. It
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was it was created back in the 70s. It's a medical chart that
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shows the connection between your brain and your spine, your
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spinal nerves, and your organs. And lo and behold, I found that
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the nerve that controls our hand, also controls our hearts.
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But you don't have pain fibers in your heart. So this is
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something that's really important. 80 to 90% of our
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body, and 80 to 90% of our body, we don't feel you will never
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feel ever. Thank God. Can you imagine? Right? Can you imagine
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if you felt 60,000 miles of arteries and veins of
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circulating blood and oxygen to your tissues?
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Alan Carroll: You can't imagine that right? I got enough things
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to think about. I mean, think about me,
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Unknown: too. Me too. Exactly. So I point to these things.
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Because listen, I've spent the last 20 years, passionately
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educating people on the power of the mind and body, and not from
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a a big grandiose idea, but from an actual scientific
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perspective. And I found when people truly understand how
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their body works, it equals freedom, freedom from what I am
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calling the enslavement of our healthcare system. Now, it's not
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all bad. So maybe it's a strong word. But when we understand
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that you've got an intelligence that's circulating 60,000 miles
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of arteries and veins, it's turning your food into your
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cells and tissues. It's, it's rebuilding your skeletal
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structure, every seven years, you have a brand new skeletal
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system, every 24 to 48 hours, you have a brand new stomach
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lining, every 120 days, your red blood cells rebuild, so I can go
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on with this. But the point being is, that's pretty damn
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cool. And whatever he's doing that knows way more than I do.
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So that whole journey at that moment, I realized when that
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that electric shock came down, and all of a sudden I started
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looking up in this in these textbooks. I said, You know
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what, I'm gonna become a chiropractor. I want to help
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people truly heal. I also said, what if I would have listened to
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the doctors who gave me a pill? Right without a prescription?
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Right? Yeah, it's just, and then I started, yeah, had these
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cognitive flashes that showed me at 40 years old and 50 and 60
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and 70, the result of suppressing symptoms with some
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kind of pill or whatever. What would that do in the long run?
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And that's when I started realizing, oh my gosh, we're not
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looking for causes. So there's a principle of course of cause and
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effect. But what I found was that symptoms are mainly affects
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your body is not a cause. The body has never been a cause the
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body is an effect. It's a loudspeaker of you and the
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interaction of you and whatever intelligence you believe in. So
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well, kind of weaving all that together. When I, the first day
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in chiropractic school, the very first day in chiropractic
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school, I think it was 22 or 23. At the time, we had to do an
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introduction of ourselves, I stood up, and everyone kind of
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introduced themselves and I stood up and I was kind of a, I
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would say, I was cocky, big ego. And I loved to entertain, you
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know, I was pretty full of myself at the time. And so I
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started to tell this funny story about how I'm drinking and
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trying to entertain everyone. And I heard a voice pop in my in
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my head, it literally popped in. And it's shut me up. And it
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said, Your purpose is to ignite and inspire people to their
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highest potential. And I literally stopped talking,
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looked around, and it was, I mean, I'm in front of 400
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people. And I'm like, I couldn't say Did anyone hear that? But I
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heard it. But I could tell no one else heard it. So it threw
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me off.
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Alan Carroll: That's cute. That's cute. Cody, it threw you
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off every voice of God in the middle of a 400 person seminar
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threw you off? Well, I, I can understand wobbled a bit but
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Unknown: no, right now get me back on my egoic trip, like I
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know what I'm doing here. So you know, source Exactly. So. So I
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say that because that was the initiation of kind of going,
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Okay, wait a minute, there's something greater here. And
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here's my purpose. So that kind of is a rundown of, of the
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initial part of my story. Well,
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Alan Carroll: that's a Mount Everest kind of experience where
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you hear hear a voice inside your head and have a physical
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experience of a flow of energy going down your body a spark of
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energy. It's like a wake up call, like, you wake up from a
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dream, like, wait a minute, what's going on? It's like shock
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therapy, where you're, you're shocked into awakeness. And so I
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can understand that that is, that's rare. In my experience,
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it's rare. And yet, you don't have to have too many of them to
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get you on the track. And so those kinds of experiences,
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especially being being told, of what your purpose is, the
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younger age, yes, then then the decision making process becomes,
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oh, if you're aligned with your purpose, then of course, I would
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do that. But if you don't have a purpose, then, you know, try
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this, try that, try this. Try that. So boy, what a what, what
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a gift. What a gift. Well, let's continue down the you talked
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about the, the body is the effect, it's not the cause, the
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effect is somewhere else. And, and to me, when I think about
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the effect of the body, I think about the thoughts that I think
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and how the thoughts that I think influenced the condition
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of my mental, physical and emotional body. Is that similar
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to where you go with your, what's, what's the cause of the
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effects?
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Unknown: Well, we're gonna go there, and we're also gonna go
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beyond because what we're at right now 23. So I basically
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spend the next 17 years you know, become a chiropractor. In
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chiropractic school, I discovered a a work a course a
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program that was a part of, from a man who developed this in
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1931. It was called concept therapy. So in 1931, he had a
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cognition and enlightenment, his name was Dr. Thurman fleet. And
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so in 1931, he basically had that cognitive load of these
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courses and classes to basically describe what awareness is he
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had during those than the seven day enlightenment. So I studied
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those four years, I started teaching them. So when I went to
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chiropractic school for was a four or five years got out of my
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practice. And I studied this guy's work. And I also started
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teaching as I was a youngest teacher. And most of the people
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in this class in this in the teachers were 60 was young.
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They're mostly in their 70s and 80s. Teaching, because the, you
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know, the guy taught people back in the 30s and 40s. So, so it
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was like, I was one of the youngest kids, there are guys.
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And so this work was what really opened up my consciousness. And
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here's why I say this. We discussed about the body and in
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chiropractic, we go, okay, the cause of disease is a pinched
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nerve. So when you block lifeforce, from the brain to the
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new organs, it doesn't get through. And yes, that's, that's
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a truth. That's a truth. It's not the whole truth, though.
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It's a truth. Because you as you just mentioned about thoughts.
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If we start weaving this together, One of the one of the
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interesting piece of this is was his work was based on why if you
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if you, when you adjust someone, I had just you you guys know
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this, I had in my office people heal from breast cancers,
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digestive cancers, sickle cell anemia, AIDS, fibromyalgia,
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multiple sclerosis. I wasn't doing anything except
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chiropractic. But the question is, why would I just someone,
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why would why would their multiple sclerosis get better.
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But most chiropractors aren't getting, you know, those kinds
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of things better. I mean, the average chiropractor fixes
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someone back in headaches, that which is great, that's awesome.
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But what I learned from this gentleman was the effects of
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consciousness upon consciousness. So just to
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explain this, he had a model that described when when more
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than one human get together, there's a way of their
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unconscious minds interacting. And there's a way to connect,
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it's called rapport. So when two people have rapport, you can
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influence each other's unconscious mind or the
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subconscious brain, okay, just to keep it simple. So he had
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trained us to build an image of health, in our mind. So I had
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six clear images, let's say of perfect gestion. And in order to
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under really understand this is you right now and you and your
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listeners, you're digesting food, you're circulating blood,
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which means you have a program for normal digestion, and normal
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circulation in your unconscious mind. That's there. Now, matter
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of fact, none of us know how it works. Yeah, none of us know how
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it works. There's not one doctor in this planet, they can tell
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you how circulation really works to just really feel into this.
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If you and I read every medical textbook, every anatomy
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textbooks, every physiology textbook on the planet, we
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understand 3% about how the body works. I think that's important.
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Understood, you go to the doctor, yeah, you go to the
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doctor, it's important people hear this, you're going to
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someone who's understands a very small percentage of the body.
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But there's someone else in there who understands the whole
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thing. And that's whatever power resides in the subconscious
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mind. Now, chiropractors say that God is resides in there, I
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think that's probably a good assessment. Because who else is
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going to know how to do these amazing things? Right? I don't
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know. I don't know how to do it. So in chiropractic, we say, you
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know, that, when you when you feel into this, if the doctor
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can put attention on on health, it'll amplify a patient's
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subconscious brain cells. So if I focus on perfect digestion,
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it'll amplify the program that's already there. Now that's,
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that's outside of chiropractic. So removing pressure off a nerve
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is fantastic. That's amazing. It's a physical treatment. But
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the doctor can amplify subconscious brain cells, you
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have an added effect of implementing the the program
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that's in there for perfect digestion. Okay, so I say that,
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because that's an addition on top of chiropractic. That's what
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I was doing with people. That's what I learned. And that's what
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I was trained in that is the influence of thought upon
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amongst our, you know, our own body, but thoughts and energy
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were how it impacts other people's bodies. Does that make
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sense?
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Alan Carroll: You know, I'm, I'm a believer of the there's a form
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of yoga called Raja Yoga. And Raja Yoga is the king yoga. And
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when you look at what does Raja Yoga mean, it has to do with the
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exploration of the inner world, through meditation. And when you
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start to explore the inner world through meditation, the inner
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world is composed of thoughts, and no thought. And so you begin
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to observe the thoughts, which begins to build the muscle of
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the observer and the witness that allows you to create the
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space between you in the event which allows you to respond
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rather than react. And stay still while other people are
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going bonkers. So I understand the power of the mind and and
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that book talked about the the body mind soul. Now soul to me,
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is metaphysical. Body. Yes, body is definitely the physical mind
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is an operation of the physical, you cannot think no one can tell
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you where it is. So it's beyond the physical but it's not
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metaphysical. It's not to beyond the physical or metaphysical is,
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is beyond the mind, which is composed of the thoughts. So
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it's that space on either side of the thoughts. So, so go ahead
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and weave in your understanding of let's go
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Unknown: there. Yeah, and especially with your level of
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consciousness in the your program and your listeners
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there, but we're able to go there. So I love that I can do
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this. So now if we take this step, you're gonna love this
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story, because this is the next this is the next big moment
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every moment. Okay, let's fast forward. So I've got these
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amazing healing results. I mean, we're getting I have hospitals
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calling me asking me what we're doing because patients are
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healing from sickle cell anemia. The UN AIDS and right. And it's
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incredible. So I'm pretty I still got my ego by the way, I
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didn't get rid of that. So I'm pretty, pretty big on myself
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with what I'm doing here. We got a huge Wellness Center. Well, I
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started hearing you know the little bit of the voice saying,
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hey, it's time for you to get get out of this and go none and
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then right, right, exactly right. So I thought she only got
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one gift in this life. You see, Alan i That was the thing I was
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confused on. So anyway, I'm pretty good. What I'm doing now
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I so I listened for five years go through some pain. I ended up
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getting to sell my chiropractic office, it was awesome to do
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this, okay. And it pushed me into a whole new kind of
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business. I opened a product business on Amazon, which most
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would say isn't really that mindful. It doesn't have any
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spiritual aspects. It does. It didn't. It really didn't.
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There's things in there, but I couldn't figure out why it's
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telling me to do this. So I do I do this. And then I'm making
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great money. Here's where it gets interesting. This is in
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2019. I start getting pretty tired. I'm pretty worn out. I
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started taking some naps throughout the day. And I'm
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getting more and more tired. I'm going man, I'm I'm in November,
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I know the power of my mind. So I can override my body. Okay, so
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I do I override my body. I'm not listening to it anymore. I'm
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overriding going Nope, I have perfect energy. Let me just
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focus on positive things. And I'm pretty positive. You also I
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was not someone that you could you could complain to as well at
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the time. So I get I get more more tired. Now what starts
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happening is I'm getting so tired that I'm sleeping eight
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hours at night and two hours in a day, three hours in a day,
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four hours in a day. I'm starting to get pretty worried.
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Yeah, yeah. And I had made multiple trips to China because
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you source products from China to build these to build these
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products. Okay. So this is the story. I start going to doctors,
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you know, I don't even believe in doctors, right? I judge
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medical doctors I judge the whole system. This is a big
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principle. I've noticed whatever we criticize, we eventually
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become a big principal here go
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Alan Carroll: ahead and say that again. Say that again? Dr. Cody
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because that's a really a pretty sound
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Unknown: Yeah. Yeah, yeah, let me say it fully Yeah, whatever
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we criticize we eventually attract in our life becoming
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ourself or breed it in our kids.
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Alan Carroll: Like like you throw the ball out but it
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bounces back and hit you in the face
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Unknown: yeah, because energy where people people going oh,
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we're concentration goes energy flows and manifests in physical
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form. But what I didn't realize was if you shove down fear your
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whatever you repress get expressed. Now it may express in
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a way you don't like but I'll get into that principle that's a
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pretty big one. So you bet so here's what happens right? So
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I'm starting to get more and more sick I start going to
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doctors because i There's no all my natural healers can't do
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anything my patent may chiropractors my you know all of
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them. And so long story short, I started doing some stool tests
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and the samples and $35,000 of blood tests. I mean, I'm
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starting to get pretty sick. Now I'm in bed eight hours at night
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and eight hours in a day. Okay. My energy is so bad. I'm
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starting to be poisoned from the inside. I didn't know what was
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going on. But I basically got a parasite in China which by the
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way, I didn't believe in parasites I thought it was all
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in your head so just to hear it here that I created what I
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decided to started becoming Okay. Bacteria, I thought
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bacteria is bullshit. I judge that I said that's on your mind
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that's on your mind. So I get a parasite in China that starts
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eating away at my my nutrients and start becoming malnourished
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from the inside. Okay. Now, I was bit by a tick when I was 17.
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Okay, so limes bacteria Lyme bacteria was released into my
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system now the Lyme bacteria is actually circulating through my
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blood brain barrier in through my circulation and it is
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poisoning my brain. So now I can't think straight like you
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asked me to spell my name. I can't spell my name. But it's
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pretty scary to experience that it's a bit like exploring
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Alzheimer's I would think so. I'm now in bed. I'm it's easier
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to see when I'm not in bed. I'm basically up an hour to two
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hours a day to try to take supplements and eat something
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and this happens I'm in bed for six months. I don't walk for six
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months. I've got a new brand brand new baby she's six months
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old. I don't hold her my mom and dad who are in their in their
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70s Come out and they get to watch me they gotta they gotta
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stay with me so they can so I can take care of my you know my
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family. My dad stays with me Mom saves me which by the way, I
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didn't have a lot of affinity for family that was one of my
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high priorities. I always judged family said families just there
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for blood. It's just not right. Whatever you criticize, you
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eventually attract breeder become so now I've got to rely
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on my family. This goes on for a year and a half, six months
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embed me fast forward to you can't imagine the physical and
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mental pain of the breaking down of your body. When you feel your
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body breaking down. You Feel your organs breaking down. All
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the patients who came in who had problems. I really never had
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problems like this. I started having sympathy. Right? Right. I
25:08
started understanding oh my god, I see what you guys were
25:11
experiencing. But it was on a whole level for me not walking
25:15
for six months when you're an athlete, I was a bodybuilder.
25:18
I'm a public speaker, I'm you know, I'm designed to help other
25:20
people. So here's what happens is the start, I can't go to my
25:23
body anymore. My body's just destroying. So I go into my
25:26
mind, I go, You know what, I got control over my mind. But
25:29
because the bacteria poison my mind, what happens when you lose
25:32
your mind? literally lost my mind? Where do you go? When your
25:36
body doesn't work anymore? And your mind isn't working anymore?
25:39
That's an interesting question. Well, I moved outside of it. And
25:43
I literally watched myself above my body for months, I just sat
25:47
over it. Well, I don't know how that even happened. I just
25:49
watched it. And of course, I'm having conversations with
25:52
whatever entity will talk to me. Jesus Buddha, Allah, I didn't I
25:58
didn't believe in religion, but I talked to anybody at that
26:00
point. All right. And I went through all the metaphysical
26:05
principles, all the rays of the dawn, the concept therapy, the
26:09
Joe Dispenza, the Bruce Lipton, the all of them, the Tony
26:13
Robbins, I went through all the principles I knew, to try to
26:15
figure out what was going on. None of it worked. None of it
26:19
worked. And I can't describe to you the mental pain and the
26:23
emotional pain. The psychological pain is the best
26:27
way to put the spiritual pain of, of thinking that you know
26:31
how to help people. But How funny is it to be the guy that
26:35
can help everyone, but can't help himself. That level of that
26:39
level of hypocrisy, and self condemnation was pretty big.
26:43
Okay. So I feel myself dying. I don't want anyone around.
26:48
Because I was always Mr. Positive, and I wanted people to
26:50
see me as strong. I never showed weak parts of myself, which is a
26:54
little hint to this story. And I didn't want to no one around.
26:58
And I just I didn't, I said, all my friends wouldn't come over to
27:01
need help. And like, I couldn't talk on the phone and get my
27:03
computer. Now interesting enough, I had Amazon business,
27:07
which didn't require my presence. I had one employee who
27:09
ran the whole thing. Had I kept my chiropractic office, I would
27:13
have lost everything. But source or spirit guided me to build a
27:18
business, which I thought was very unspiritual. Right. And
27:21
they right had no purpose. Well, here's the purpose, to go
27:25
through this event, and still provide income for my family. I
27:28
couldn't have I couldn't have thought of that. Right? You see,
27:30
I'm saying right. So right. So this is the moment I think is
27:34
important for you and want you to get the story. I'm I am
27:39
saying things like this, I just want to die. Just let me die.
27:44
It's not about suicide. It was about what's the point of living
27:47
like this. You can't walk? What's the point? I mean, I
27:50
could hear people playing outside I could, I could feel
27:52
that the sun was nice. I could feel people enjoying their
27:55
lives. What's the point of living? These are things I would
27:58
have never said before. I would never said before, because I was
28:01
blocking out dark, negative, I was blocking the other side of
28:05
life. So I finally like, listen, I tried ways to kill myself. I'm
28:10
gonna just be honest. And I started most people could hear
28:13
my verbiage. And they were worried about me. And so people
28:15
started coming over and watching me. And I finally said, Okay,
28:19
well, that's, you know, I remember trying to figure out
28:21
how to jump out of the window, and land on my head. So I break
28:23
my neck, because I just I know how the body works. Right? So
28:27
but then I realized, is it really going to relieve me from
28:30
my spiritual pain by removing my body? And I said, that's, that's
28:33
quite an interesting question there in itself, right? So so I
28:37
go in, and I realized I'm so afraid of death all the things
28:43
the dark energies that I called dark all the things I was afraid
28:47
of were starting to happen. And I finally after there's a
28:50
there's about two weeks in this, but I said, Screw it. I'm gonna
28:55
go in let me just go into these energies. Let me start I felt I
28:58
was resisting all this. Let me just go into the darkness, the
29:01
death the dying the illness, let me go in to the things that I've
29:05
been avoiding. Let me just go in because what else is gonna
29:08
happen if I die, die?
29:12
I don't know how I did this. But if people can resonate with
29:17
resisting something, and you just stop and you allow it in,
29:20
however you do, however, you can translate that in your own
29:22
being. I let this in and I dove in imagine a pool of darkness, a
29:28
pool of dark tar that think you're gonna die and you just
29:31
dive into that son of a gun. Right? When I died in, I moved
29:36
in to what felt like death and dying. I started feeling
29:40
electricity. I started feeling life. When I dove into darkness.
29:45
I started feeling life. All the treatments, all the stuff. I was
29:48
doing multiple IVs oxygen therapy. I mean, I'm not going
29:51
to go through the whole list, a whole 25 to 30 prescriptions and
29:56
medication. None of that stuff did anything. None of it
29:59
anything but When I dove into this darkness, I started filling
30:02
life. I don't know how that how even describe this after six
30:05
months of being in bed to dive in, and you feel life and now my
30:11
I'm very confused. I'm confused because I thought that you
30:14
needed to be positive in life, I thought positivity was a way to
30:17
have a good life. I'm starting to be shown something else. So
30:22
things that sort of flashed through my mind this moment was,
30:25
I had judged so many things in my life for being bad or
30:29
negative. And I started I had to become all these things like I
30:32
mentioned. Well, I wasn't a guy that you could talk to when if
30:36
you want to kill yourself, don't come talk to me. If you were you
30:39
feeling bad about your day, don't come talk to me. Well, now
30:42
I'm the guy that suddenly realize, oh, my gosh, positivity
30:47
is a fantasy. Negativity is a fantasy. Both are illusions.
30:53
Both are illusions. There's a law of polarity, which I
30:56
understood, but I understood it intellectually. Now I'm starting
30:59
to grasp it. Universal Law of Polarity, which I know you're
31:02
familiar with, Allen says that the tides go in, the tides go
31:05
out, the sun comes up, the sun goes down. Human equilibrium
31:08
goes through polarity, there's nothing that doesn't have
31:10
polarity. But what I was doing was trying to be a one sided
31:16
being, right, one sided positive person, right, and cutting out
31:20
the negative. This is what our self development world, much of
31:22
the self development world has been teaching. Well, guess what
31:26
happens when you hold the positive polarity to feel into
31:28
this. I'm Dr. Goldman, and the ultimate image of health. Let me
31:33
help you. Let me help you achieve success, achieve health
31:38
achieve, you know, happiness. So I'm holding the positive poll,
31:42
the longer and harder you hold that poll, the harsher the swing
31:47
to the side, boom. That's where the illness came in. That's why
31:50
it was so harsh. When I allowed this energy, all of it to dive
31:55
in. But I say life started coming back in I don't mean
31:58
positivity, I mean, the energy of life, which is what's in
32:03
between polarities. So if we have positive negative
32:06
illusions, when you collapse the positive, negative and realize
32:09
their illusions, that's when true energy starts coming in.
32:15
And that's when power started coming in. And that's when my
32:17
body started healing again, I was able to, within two weeks,
32:21
notice my first walk or walk to half block. And then that half
32:25
block of stumbling, my feet just kind of shuffling, just very
32:28
slowly. This little old lady with a walker passes me up. And
32:33
I started having this cognition, oh my god, you were judgmental
32:37
of slow people. Now you became a slow person. They see all these
32:43
things that we we judged in our lives. I wanted to say this in a
32:47
strong way. We know that you'll eventually become them. But if
32:50
you can go in and see and the things that you have judged, and
32:55
see how it all has both benefits and drawbacks. Even the you know
33:01
what I mean? Yeah, when you feel oh, yeah, so this moment, this
33:04
Yeah, this moment was a psychedelic moment. Yep. I had
33:07
never done psychedelics. I've never done any drugs in my life.
33:12
But when you take this moment, and I slowly started healing,
33:15
you started coming back and trying to figure out okay, what
33:17
do I do with this now? Right? What do I do with this? I of
33:21
course, my Amazon business is not needed anymore. So that
33:24
slowly started going away. Right? And I so started going,
33:28
Well, what do you want me to do now? And this is where the path
33:33
started taking me was, was starting to coach people. And
33:38
and you know, you probably have seen I have a, it's interesting,
33:41
because you know how I judge the Amazon company. Well, it told me
33:45
the next thing was build a weight loss company and go a
33:47
weight loss. That's so physical. Why would you do that? That's
33:51
just as not spiritual. And then I realized, Oh, my God, when you
33:56
don't have your body, you're not seeking for God. While you're
34:00
seeking for it is fucking relief. Sorry for the cursing,
34:03
but some relief. Right, right. Yeah. And so I realized that
34:06
that's the first step to spirituality is do you have your
34:09
health? It doesn't, I wouldn't ever said that before. But now I
34:13
can say with certainty, say that with certainty, I can say that.
34:17
And so over those years, what's very cool, I'm gonna want to
34:21
want to just first of all, I want to see see if there's
34:22
anything that's coming in your in your in your mind from that
34:24
story, because I want to just give some space and time to
34:27
talk. You're
34:29
Alan Carroll: the I'm looking down on the earth from the
34:34
International Space Station. And all the lights are off in the
34:41
United States. And when you were talking about it, the flicker of
34:48
light began to appear. And then more and more light began to
34:54
appear. And I look at that light Holy Spirit, kind of like divine
35:03
energy kind of light, which is available when you're able to
35:09
have mental stability and not get polarized by anything.
35:15
Because you don't identify with anything. If you identify with
35:19
something, then you're deep trouble because something's
35:21
going to change. But if you identify with nothing, then you
35:26
are calm in the middle of the chaos. And but most people can't
35:30
give up the some things in order to get to the nothings. And so
35:33
you had the physical razzmatazz of divine energy shaking you up.
35:39
And that's really a gift. Because that just accelerates
35:41
the light that you are, that allows you to shine light,
35:44
brighter into the world, to create these wonderful
35:47
architects of spirituality. Beautiful, beautiful. It's also
35:53
it's time to get get complete here. It's very, very moving
35:57
story, but I want to give you a chance to complete and then
36:01
we'll tell the audience how they can get a hold of you.
36:04
Unknown: Well, Alan, I want to say thank you, I can feel energy
36:07
speaking inside you. And I feel tears inside as you're talking.
36:09
Because, you know, I feel now what's opened up in media, I can
36:12
feel people so deeply. It doesn't matter if they're across
36:15
the world or right in front of me. And so I can feel you as
36:18
you're talking in your and you understand what I'm saying. And
36:21
that means so much to me. And I want to Yeah, so I just love
36:27
having the conversation. Something that you know, just
36:29
right now as you're talking, I feel tears coming through. And
36:33
this is something that I used to block especially as a as a male.
36:37
But I start I allow this through now. And here's why. In the
36:42
right before I was wanting to kill myself, I found a book
36:46
called The Five Regrets of Dying. Oh, what a horrible
36:50
title. Oh my god, that's so negative. I gotta tell you, this
36:53
book was life changing. I would have never read that before
36:55
until I actually wanted to kill myself. In this book this lady
36:59
describes she spends 30 years in hospice. And she's basically
37:02
with people on their on their deathbed. In their last few
37:07
minutes of what they're what they say and their and their
37:10
regrets in their life. Okay. And if you ever have you read that
37:13
book,
37:14
Alan Carroll: not say they say the title again, the five, the
37:17
the
37:18
Unknown: Top Five Regrets of Dying. Yeah. And here's what
37:23
here's what when I this book came to me as I was right before
37:27
and to kill myself. And let me just share just a few ladies.
37:31
This is what started. Yeah, this was started changing me because
37:33
I was someone that was just to reiterate, I was entrepreneur
37:37
focused, I still love business. But I was focused on my
37:40
business. I was focused on my money, my car's my house. But
37:46
what I didn't realize was the things that these people said
37:50
before their deathbed. And I think if people read this, you
37:52
just even read the five things they say, it'll move you the
37:56
first thing. I wish I had the courage to live a life true to
38:00
myself. Not the life others expected of me. There's many
38:06
things in that. There's many things but that's what people
38:09
that's the number one people think people said, I wish I
38:11
lived the life that was true to me. Now what others expected yet
38:15
was social construct said of me, not what not what my mom, my
38:19
dad, not what my husband, but what I wanted, I wish a little
38:23
had the life that lived the life that I wanted. When you have an
38:27
experience of almost dying. I had, I feel like I've got the
38:31
perspective of what it's what it's like to be 9099 102,
38:36
whatever, whatever it is, and you're about to die, and you
38:39
know it. And and you go and you you have perspective, it's
38:43
perspective. So at 4041, I had perspective on the first 41
38:49
years going, you view, we're not tuned in to what was really
38:55
magical in this lifetime. You were tuned into the things that
38:58
were transient. And I started realizing I didn't share love
39:04
with people. Every time I would talk to like I'm talking to you
39:07
and I'm tearing up. But I would shut that down before and I
39:11
wouldn't say what was coming through we stopped the throat
39:14
chakra from communicating what what spirit in me wants to say
39:18
to the Spirit and you that's what came through. The second
39:21
thing is people said I wish I hadn't worked so hard. They go
39:24
that's that's a funny one. That makes sense. I wish and work so
39:27
hard this this simple things. The third thing was I wish I had
39:31
the courage to express my feelings. So like right now in
39:35
this moment, I can tell you with certainty, Alan, I can feel you.
39:39
I can feel your being. I don't feel a difference in age. I
39:43
don't feel a difference in in in who we are as as men. I feel the
39:47
resonance of of what is in me within you. And I have a love
39:52
for you and what you do, and I can say that now with certainty
39:56
but before I couldn't have said that to another man The fourth
40:02
one was, I wish I'd stay in touch with my friends. The
40:05
simplicity of that, the simplicity of that when you feel
40:08
into at 99 or 102, and you're about to leave, to feel the
40:13
simplicity that in whatever age and current time space reality
40:17
someone is to feel the simplicity of that. And then
40:20
number five, I wish I let myself be happier. That was it. None of
40:25
Nobody said I wish I made more money. Nobody said, I wish I had
40:29
more achievements. Nobody said, I wish I got the Range Rover,
40:33
not one person said any of these things. And then I started
40:35
realizing, Oh, the gift to really know what's important.
40:39
And this is what I you know, you mentioned mentioned about how to
40:42
transmit to people. I think in this moment, if people can feel
40:46
and listen what I'm saying, you start telling the people in your
40:49
life, who have been there for you that you love them and tell
40:52
them how you really feel. You don't know the things that you
40:54
say, they may be coming from from source, and the impact we
40:58
have on each other. These are the things we remember, you
41:01
know, the love that we share amongst amongst beings. No one,
41:05
no one really, no one really cared how big your house was.
41:08
So. So that was a defining moment that I think feeling that
41:15
and then moving forward, I now get to coach people. I now have
41:20
people who are going through his experiences who have no one to
41:23
talk to. And I go hey, man, I've been there they go. You've been
41:26
here? Yes. And they go, Yeah, I know what it's like 20 Kill
41:29
yourself. I noticed like, and they go, how could you talk with
41:34
me right now know this? And I go because I am you. Because I've
41:37
been because I let myself dive into it. Because the things
41:41
you're resisting, it's really this incredible source that's
41:45
pushing you towards being something so much more than you
41:48
can imagine. So that first thing you you mentioned just about
41:52
thoughts. I know with certainty now that I'm not a body. I have
41:55
a body. Yes, I know. It's certainly now, right? That I'm
41:58
not a mind yet. But I have a mind You bet. And now, yes, but
42:03
I also know that I am a a timeless spaceless massless
42:08
being that I've had cognitions now, doing this several 1000s of
42:13
times when I say this, coming here, being in this and doing
42:18
this, I can now feel outside of this time and space. And so when
42:22
you talked about coming from the space station and looking down I
42:26
thought man space station like when you go into the in and out
42:32
of time and space, the space station and the earth and planet
42:35
all go away. And you start realizing that this thing is so
42:38
much bigger than our than our finite mind can ever imagine. So
42:42
there's a few things for you Alan.
42:45
Alan Carroll: I tell you it's a lot of meat on that bone you
42:47
designate you gave us I appreciate I appreciate Cody I
42:51
appreciate your your sharing, sharing sharing the light
42:56
sharing the light with us today. Thank you very very much for
42:59
being on the mindful you podcast. It was a very rich rich
43:04
venture into the the gold mind of love. Very nice. Thank you.
43:12
Still brings tears to my eyes.
43:14
Unknown: Yes, I hope so.